God has such great plans for me, people say. Really? Can someone show me where? I am a little lost or am I really? Maybe I just need to be here right now. I wish I could text him or call him and have a little heart to heart. I want to know exactly what He wants me to do so I can accomplish my plans. Wish it would work that way, but it does not. I feel I have to talked to God many times and many times I said that He did not listen, which is a lie from...you know who. God is always listening but we whine a lot.
I decided to take time to listen to God. I decided that when I asked Him a question to give Him time to answer before I ramble on. That if , Iam really looking for His answer not to be surprised I have heard it before or is something I really don't want or am ready to hear. I believe a lot of our days we focus on what I need to accomplish and not what God has on my agenda for me today. I hope that when I am done listening, I can follow and be one with Him.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Questions from my random thoughts...
Have you ever had random thoughts in your head that you wonder where they came from? I have been having some of those this week. Feeling a little overwhelmed and almost confused, can anyone relate? There is so much to do and somehow I find time to waste and not get things done. Then, there is so much going on with rough weather, natural disasters, men made disasters, and so much more we are not aware of that I am just trying to be here and understand. I live life one day at a time and do the best I can each and everyday, but somedays... I feel like I fail at just trying to do something. I know that the best thing God made was another day but sometimes when I am feeling like the worst day ever, the last thing I want is to start over. I thank God it does happen because it gives me a chance to have a better day. Sometimes it is a battle to just finish the day.
I believe to be a pretty positive person and find positive things even in not such good situations. For the past few weeks, I have been feeling like my positivity is almost a negative to other people because they don't even want hear the positive, they just want to dwell on their "problem" or their situation. I understand sometimes all we need to do is listen but even smiling or acknowledging seems to be putting them off. I totally understand but it makes me feel that I really don't have understanding to their situation or makes me unrelatable to their problem. I feel like I cannot help or relate.
I can only say I am very blessed to have my sensitivity, experiences, my issues but sometimes feel that because I have had a "good" life that others don't feel like I can listen, help or understand. Maybe is crap that the "dirtball" its putting on my head but this is how I feel at times. I want to think that I am grateful to God for what he has given me. I hope I never turn my back to what He has taught, shown, given me. So by questioning my "positive" outlook in life, Am I turning my back on the gift that God has given me? Am I not understanding what I need to do?
I have written about a friend that has struggled before with issues he cannot control. This is his third battle with cancer and just as he did before he is fighting it. The doctors, of course, gave him all the information they believe to be important. Including that if medication does not work he only has 6 months but if it works 5 years. Ok, how the h*** do they know? What do they know about God's plan? and at the same time how do I tell someone that has been diagnosed that they are "loved" by me and God? Especially, when I cannot explain why it is happening again. How do I stay positive? I know the truth, I know where I am going to be? but it is still a hard news to hear. Yeah, I have experienced a family member battling cancer. (my father) How do you keep a positive outlook? Well, my friend John does. Yeah, the news are not what he wanted to hear but he is handling it as best as he can. His family ( wife and three beautiful daughters) are struggling. I hope that I can be there for them too. I believe that he has taught me more than he really knows. He has "loved" on me even when I did not believed and love on myself. He is a man with a big heart that has positive words and encouragement for everyone and it makes you feel like you are on top of the world. Thank you John! for showing me that God loves us. Thank you for reminding me that no matter what, we can be the support and encouragement for someone else with just our presence and love. God died for us so we can just live and love for Him.
I will keep one thought in mind, even when I do not have the right words to say or understand what is happening or how they are feeling, I do have the love that God gave me to share with them and I can still offer my support and encouragement. In turn, I will show my love for them and God's love through me. Right? Is this why He made me this way?
I believe to be a pretty positive person and find positive things even in not such good situations. For the past few weeks, I have been feeling like my positivity is almost a negative to other people because they don't even want hear the positive, they just want to dwell on their "problem" or their situation. I understand sometimes all we need to do is listen but even smiling or acknowledging seems to be putting them off. I totally understand but it makes me feel that I really don't have understanding to their situation or makes me unrelatable to their problem. I feel like I cannot help or relate.
I can only say I am very blessed to have my sensitivity, experiences, my issues but sometimes feel that because I have had a "good" life that others don't feel like I can listen, help or understand. Maybe is crap that the "dirtball" its putting on my head but this is how I feel at times. I want to think that I am grateful to God for what he has given me. I hope I never turn my back to what He has taught, shown, given me. So by questioning my "positive" outlook in life, Am I turning my back on the gift that God has given me? Am I not understanding what I need to do?
I have written about a friend that has struggled before with issues he cannot control. This is his third battle with cancer and just as he did before he is fighting it. The doctors, of course, gave him all the information they believe to be important. Including that if medication does not work he only has 6 months but if it works 5 years. Ok, how the h*** do they know? What do they know about God's plan? and at the same time how do I tell someone that has been diagnosed that they are "loved" by me and God? Especially, when I cannot explain why it is happening again. How do I stay positive? I know the truth, I know where I am going to be? but it is still a hard news to hear. Yeah, I have experienced a family member battling cancer. (my father) How do you keep a positive outlook? Well, my friend John does. Yeah, the news are not what he wanted to hear but he is handling it as best as he can. His family ( wife and three beautiful daughters) are struggling. I hope that I can be there for them too. I believe that he has taught me more than he really knows. He has "loved" on me even when I did not believed and love on myself. He is a man with a big heart that has positive words and encouragement for everyone and it makes you feel like you are on top of the world. Thank you John! for showing me that God loves us. Thank you for reminding me that no matter what, we can be the support and encouragement for someone else with just our presence and love. God died for us so we can just live and love for Him.
I will keep one thought in mind, even when I do not have the right words to say or understand what is happening or how they are feeling, I do have the love that God gave me to share with them and I can still offer my support and encouragement. In turn, I will show my love for them and God's love through me. Right? Is this why He made me this way?
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