There is something peaceful about snow. The cool quiet white surroundings give me such a sense of peace. I feel like in God's presence everytime I stand and look around when the snow has not been removed yet from the street or the cars. Where you can see the way nature blankets all the area. I know it's cold, for those of you who love hot weather, but it really seems to be pure and only God gets to design each flake! What a blessing to be able to see this weather phenomenon. I grew up in a tropical island were snow is non existing. The first time I saw snow I was so excited, now I just feel so connected with God.
In this quiet evening at home, I just want to take time to reflect on how much I have, how blessed I am to have experienced life each and every day and how much more I have to live to be able to share my story the way God wants me to. Don't get me wrong, I am ready for Spring to be here, but during these snowy days I want to enjoy them and realized how wonderful our God is to give us seasons to enjoy!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Why is it so hard?
In the past week, I have been very sensitive on how I talk, respond and even comment when asked a question. I have felt so sensitive about myself. Although I am not perfect, I think most of the time I feel pretty comfortable with me and the way I am.
In the past year, I have had to learn my "new" job responsabilities and duties. For the prior years before, I was at the top of my game and knew my stuff. Although in the past year I have made trememdous progress, I feel that I am so far behind. I have so much more to learn and feels like I am not catching up.
I have asked others to tell me what I need to do to perform better or what else can I do to "improve"? What do I need to change to be good at...? It all sounds great but when it is addressed and I am told I am not doing something right or this is the way it needs to be done or you need to keep working on that... or whatever it is, I take it to heart. Eventhough, I am trying to be grown up about it, it hurts my feelings. I have busted my tail to do my best and someone else tells me that my best is not good enough or I have to change what I consider my best and it really ticks me off. Why? These "people" are trying to help me. I have asked them to tell me what is wrong? and I still get mad or upset when they tell me. Why?????
Sometimes I feel I'm the only one working towards the goal when in reality I know there is more than me working. Are there things that you do that agravate people and they dont tell you and they don't "correct" you or tell you what your are doing is wrong or incorrect? Why dont we if it bothers us? Why can we discuss it like adults and figure out how we can improve or change it so it is beneficial.
Sorry random thoughts today but it has been bothering me a lot this week. What is really bothering me that I do not have the answer, Is it my ego? Why is the criticism so difficult to take when really it should helpful to make you improve.
I dont know the answers but God will grant them to me. Maybe I need to talk to HIM. :)
In the past year, I have had to learn my "new" job responsabilities and duties. For the prior years before, I was at the top of my game and knew my stuff. Although in the past year I have made trememdous progress, I feel that I am so far behind. I have so much more to learn and feels like I am not catching up.
I have asked others to tell me what I need to do to perform better or what else can I do to "improve"? What do I need to change to be good at...? It all sounds great but when it is addressed and I am told I am not doing something right or this is the way it needs to be done or you need to keep working on that... or whatever it is, I take it to heart. Eventhough, I am trying to be grown up about it, it hurts my feelings. I have busted my tail to do my best and someone else tells me that my best is not good enough or I have to change what I consider my best and it really ticks me off. Why? These "people" are trying to help me. I have asked them to tell me what is wrong? and I still get mad or upset when they tell me. Why?????
Sometimes I feel I'm the only one working towards the goal when in reality I know there is more than me working. Are there things that you do that agravate people and they dont tell you and they don't "correct" you or tell you what your are doing is wrong or incorrect? Why dont we if it bothers us? Why can we discuss it like adults and figure out how we can improve or change it so it is beneficial.
Sorry random thoughts today but it has been bothering me a lot this week. What is really bothering me that I do not have the answer, Is it my ego? Why is the criticism so difficult to take when really it should helpful to make you improve.
I dont know the answers but God will grant them to me. Maybe I need to talk to HIM. :)
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Do you like hot or cold weather?
As I sit here in the 84 degree weather in the beautiful island of Puerto Rico and think of my other family and friends at home in cold winter weather. Which do you feel more comfortable at? Obviously, I like the hot weather but I hate to be sweaty and hot so the heat reminds me on how much I like the cool crisp weather maybe even the beautiful snow. I hate to be cold and sniffly too so the cold weather reminds me how much I like to be warm! But most of all, I really like all the seasons because they make me appreciate how much God has given us. Isn't it wonderful! Which weather do you like best and share why? Would love to know what you think.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Great Love!
As I have the blessing of celebrating the Christmas holiday with my family in Puerto Rico, I dreamed of the day where no one would have to be on their own or celebrate the joy God gave us by themselves.
For the past few weeks I have been dreaming of being home and celebrating with family, "my" family. I have great in-laws that I get to share most of my day to day life with since they are in the same city I live in. I was given this opportunity during this Christmas. So for me sharing with "my" family has been a special treat and blessing. My niece, who I have not seen since she was two weeks old, is such a big girl and almost two years old. Now that I am here in Puerto Rico, I can only see the blessings I have and how "rich" I am. My God has given me so much. I have so much more than I can even dreamed of. What about those that do not know how much God has given them, His only son! How about those that don't think they have anything, or anyone that cares for them. During these times we need to reflect and think on how much God has sacrificed for us and how He is always with us. He gave His son so we can have family, friends, things, health, love, support, etc... and even when we don't know we have He is always we us!
So now, I reflect on those that need to know, those that need to be aware of how much God loves them. We are the ones that need to spread the news, give the love and teach others of what God has to offer. But we also need to be aware ourselves on how much we really have even when we cannot see it! Yeah we are all hurting because of the economy, some of us are hurting because we have people who have hurt us, others of us just don't believe or accept the truth in full, but we are all "rich". We are all bless with the love of God and even those that don't know or doubt are loved by God. Then why should not us? Why should we not love unconditionally? even when we don't agree? To love someone just becuase they exists is a hard concept to accept but if God loves you no matter what and gave up his only son for you then we have no excuse. So let's spread God's love and share life with others and love no matter what. Thank God for you, family, friends, health, love and most of all Jesus! One Great Love!!!
For the past few weeks I have been dreaming of being home and celebrating with family, "my" family. I have great in-laws that I get to share most of my day to day life with since they are in the same city I live in. I was given this opportunity during this Christmas. So for me sharing with "my" family has been a special treat and blessing. My niece, who I have not seen since she was two weeks old, is such a big girl and almost two years old. Now that I am here in Puerto Rico, I can only see the blessings I have and how "rich" I am. My God has given me so much. I have so much more than I can even dreamed of. What about those that do not know how much God has given them, His only son! How about those that don't think they have anything, or anyone that cares for them. During these times we need to reflect and think on how much God has sacrificed for us and how He is always with us. He gave His son so we can have family, friends, things, health, love, support, etc... and even when we don't know we have He is always we us!
So now, I reflect on those that need to know, those that need to be aware of how much God loves them. We are the ones that need to spread the news, give the love and teach others of what God has to offer. But we also need to be aware ourselves on how much we really have even when we cannot see it! Yeah we are all hurting because of the economy, some of us are hurting because we have people who have hurt us, others of us just don't believe or accept the truth in full, but we are all "rich". We are all bless with the love of God and even those that don't know or doubt are loved by God. Then why should not us? Why should we not love unconditionally? even when we don't agree? To love someone just becuase they exists is a hard concept to accept but if God loves you no matter what and gave up his only son for you then we have no excuse. So let's spread God's love and share life with others and love no matter what. Thank God for you, family, friends, health, love and most of all Jesus! One Great Love!!!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Are you happy enough?
Have you ever been so "happy" or satisfied with life that you wonder if you can get any happier? Don't get me wrong, there is much more than I will love to have physically, emotionally and even spiritually, but I am currently very happy in this stage of my life. God has granted me so many blessings even in the middle of my struggles.
As we talked today in lifegroup about living in the now between the beginning and the end, the key for me is just to live life.
I am so glad to have friends that listen to me, accept me for who I am and love me just where I am. Sometimes I wonder am I deserving of these friendships? Am I this kind of friend? As I analyze my level of happiness and presence in life, I cannot believe how blessed I am and how much God has given me. Am I doing the work for God wants me to do?
During this holiday season, even as I struggle with my own insecurities, I celebrate how much I have. I am such a rich woman but it is hard to see as I struggle to have more to give. Giving makes me happy. Doing for others makes me happy. Spending time with my hubby makes me happy. Why do I feel like I need more when in reality I have it all. God in my life and heart, friends and family that love me no matter what and a desire to give more away. Am I ever going to be any happier? or is this it? I know once we are in God's presence we will be the happiest but aren't we always in his presence? Shouldn't we always be the happiest if we have God in our hearts? Why do we struggle? Why do we question? Like I said before, I am a blessed rich woman. Is this the happiest I will ever be?
As we talked today in lifegroup about living in the now between the beginning and the end, the key for me is just to live life.
I am so glad to have friends that listen to me, accept me for who I am and love me just where I am. Sometimes I wonder am I deserving of these friendships? Am I this kind of friend? As I analyze my level of happiness and presence in life, I cannot believe how blessed I am and how much God has given me. Am I doing the work for God wants me to do?
During this holiday season, even as I struggle with my own insecurities, I celebrate how much I have. I am such a rich woman but it is hard to see as I struggle to have more to give. Giving makes me happy. Doing for others makes me happy. Spending time with my hubby makes me happy. Why do I feel like I need more when in reality I have it all. God in my life and heart, friends and family that love me no matter what and a desire to give more away. Am I ever going to be any happier? or is this it? I know once we are in God's presence we will be the happiest but aren't we always in his presence? Shouldn't we always be the happiest if we have God in our hearts? Why do we struggle? Why do we question? Like I said before, I am a blessed rich woman. Is this the happiest I will ever be?
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Micah 6:8
I really wanted to read this verse and study it. I wanted to know what it really meant to me. I have heard it preached before and mentioned a lot around our church. What does it really mean? What do these words tell me?
The verse goes something like this:
He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.
Wow! Such simple words and so hard to follow. Act justly? Can we be fair and just. Can we not judge others? Can we give ourselves away without a thought happening through our minds or what we are going to get back? Get yourself ready and prepare for the rest of the world to see.
Love mercy? Can we love unconditionally? Can we love others no matter what their ideas, belief system is or even opinions. Again, can we give ourselves away so that others can see God's light? We need to be the example for others to follow. How can you relate to others if you are not living life. How can God connect you with people in need if you don't put yourself out there.
Walk humbly! This one is hard for me since I want to share everything with everybody without sounding like I am being cocky. I have been very blessed most of my life. Don't get me wrong, I have had my bad times but God has really looked over me and my family. I want to make sure that when I walk in his walk that I am an example or an instrument for him. I wish I could be a humble servant that loves God unconditionally. Can we do that? Somedays we fail to believe this and sometimes we just dont even want to believe it. God show me the way and let me thrive, love unconditinally and serve others.
The verse goes something like this:
He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.
Wow! Such simple words and so hard to follow. Act justly? Can we be fair and just. Can we not judge others? Can we give ourselves away without a thought happening through our minds or what we are going to get back? Get yourself ready and prepare for the rest of the world to see.
Love mercy? Can we love unconditionally? Can we love others no matter what their ideas, belief system is or even opinions. Again, can we give ourselves away so that others can see God's light? We need to be the example for others to follow. How can you relate to others if you are not living life. How can God connect you with people in need if you don't put yourself out there.
Walk humbly! This one is hard for me since I want to share everything with everybody without sounding like I am being cocky. I have been very blessed most of my life. Don't get me wrong, I have had my bad times but God has really looked over me and my family. I want to make sure that when I walk in his walk that I am an example or an instrument for him. I wish I could be a humble servant that loves God unconditionally. Can we do that? Somedays we fail to believe this and sometimes we just dont even want to believe it. God show me the way and let me thrive, love unconditinally and serve others.
Busy day ahead!
Today I decided it was long enough to postpone cleaning my house and doing laundry. For those of you who know me I do not like cleaning my own house. Why ? I don't know. I can go to other people's houses and I am always willing to help clean but not on my own. I am tired of it! My house needs it. Don't get me wrong, I clean but hate every minute of it although I am very happy after I am done since my house smells, and looks clean.
Have I mentioned that I hate laundry too? When I was growing up our laundry room was in the same floor as my bedroom so all I had to do is walk over to the washer and dump my clothes. My mom will always do my laundry. So I have come to the conclusion the reason I hate laundry is because of my mother. Just kidding mom!
Why is it that we postpone things when we know they need to get done? Why do we procrastinate?
I am always looking for an excuse to not do house work. Facebook, blog, tv show, a friend needs me, etc... it is always a reason it doesnt get done but if I was smart I would just do a little bit everyday and it would not be a problem. How come I cannot stick with my plan? How come I just don't do it and then complain about it for the next few days and get upset or even depressed about it. Once again, what is going on in my head? Why can't I just do it and get it over with? Well, this morning I decided I am going to do it. I am going to make a list. ( I am a list maker) Then complete the things that need to be done around my house. After all the hard work I would like to enjoy the fruits of my labor. I wish it was that easy but I am determined to do something today. Anyone wants to join me or take me away? Please!!!...
Have I mentioned that I hate laundry too? When I was growing up our laundry room was in the same floor as my bedroom so all I had to do is walk over to the washer and dump my clothes. My mom will always do my laundry. So I have come to the conclusion the reason I hate laundry is because of my mother. Just kidding mom!
Why is it that we postpone things when we know they need to get done? Why do we procrastinate?
I am always looking for an excuse to not do house work. Facebook, blog, tv show, a friend needs me, etc... it is always a reason it doesnt get done but if I was smart I would just do a little bit everyday and it would not be a problem. How come I cannot stick with my plan? How come I just don't do it and then complain about it for the next few days and get upset or even depressed about it. Once again, what is going on in my head? Why can't I just do it and get it over with? Well, this morning I decided I am going to do it. I am going to make a list. ( I am a list maker) Then complete the things that need to be done around my house. After all the hard work I would like to enjoy the fruits of my labor. I wish it was that easy but I am determined to do something today. Anyone wants to join me or take me away? Please!!!...
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