Sunday, February 8, 2009

Why is there a feeling of loneliness?

I am so glad I have friends in my life I can call on. Although sometimes in the midst of all the commotion, running around and even all the church and work events a feeling of loneliness hits me; like I am the only one caring or existing. I know, I can call on many people but there are a few I know I can really call on. Why do we feel that way sometimes? I could be in the midst of friends, or even with love ones and I feel like I am the only one out there. Sometimes, I think that is the only way that God can get my attention because I try to talk to him when I am lonely or whatever that feeling is. I ask Him to fill my "sadness or emptiness" and to bring me "happiness". Somehow, even when I doubt, he always does. What is it that makes me go there to that lonely place with no one around? What makes me look inside and check what is going on? Obviously, I know the tools given to me to take that feeling away and recharge. But what about the people that don't know God, that don't know Jesus? What are they to do in this lonely world? Where everyone is for their own and not for others?

I know God is with me wherever I go but I have to really take time to look around. Sometimes it is hard to see his love all around me. The moon, the sun, the sky, the air I breathe, the smiles of others, a friend's hug, a blooming flower, I don't know there are so many signs and I still manage to miss them. I want to hug him, sing to him, kiss him on the cheek, cook for him, go to the movies with him, walk with him, tell him how much I love him but all I can do is tell others, love on others, hug others, walk with others, etc.

So if you are like me an feeling that "lonely" feeling or no so happy moment feeling, go hang out with someone that really cares for you, someone that died for all that you have done wrong. Take a walk and look around, take a deep breath and feel the air filling you lungs, just look at the sky and see the marvelous world He has created. He can show you His beauty in ways unimaginable. I trust that God will take my not so good feelings away but I cannot wait to share another day with Him. My only hope is that I can remember every minute of my life that He is my Joy even when I am not feeling joyous. Thank God for my friends that remind me how much they love me and remind me how much God loves me too! Thanks for sharing your time with me! Love you all.

3 comments:

Kelly said...

You are not alone in your feelings, Maria. I feel the same at times also. I think this is human nature and sometimes we just need to be fille dup with Him. And those people that don't nkow Jesus like we do, I say let's find them and share what we know!!! You're awesome.
Love you sis!

Helen Ann said...

What Kelly said!

HUGS!! I LOVE YOU!

I enjoyed the walk with ya'll last night! 4 miles! WE ROCK!

Francy said...

Maria -- This post is so beautiful and poignant. It really touched my heart! I'm going to print it out and tape it to my fridge. You are lovely!