Our church started the Reset journey last week. Although I was excited, I was not ready to reset my life. I thought I was doing ok, I am starting to see where my life is going. I have realized the unconditional love God has for me and then "boom", RESET journey happens. This journey is making us think of assumptions we have about God, faith, believe, grace, Jesus, etc.
Of course what is a journey without a little stirring of the pot. The first prompt or exercise that we were asked to do, just makes you think about what Jesus has asked you to do and give up so you can be His follower. Wow, your own family and yourself? Wow!
I believe that Jesus is the son of God and that He became flesh and died for me because I need it and not deserved it? Did He know what his life was going to be like? He knew what his destiny was going to be? or Did He just had a feeling that the decisions He was making were ok? Sometimes I know I am here for a purpose but am I taking the right steps or am I going on the wrong direction? I just wonder how Jesus knew so early on.
I also know that Jesus loves me and He gave His life for me so why do I feel like I have to prove it to everyone else? Why do I have to explain it to other Christians when they should be feeling the same way I feel? Why do people loose a desire, love, excitement, whatever you want to call it or never get it? Why don't they feel like me? I want to know why other believers of Jesus have to put down, hurt, criticize, other people that are believers and non-believers? We really need to look at the non believers are the y happy? unhappy? Even if they look like they are ok? How do I transfer my love, my faith, my beliefs, my feelings, my experiences, my prior knowledge to someone who doesn't believe or accepts what I believe? I am not trying to convince people but since I know the truth and how it makes me feel why can I just give people a piece of it? I don't want to pound people with all that I am feeling but I wish, even if they did not get it , they would undestand and just accept it. Then again, Am I that open minded? Did I understand the first time someone talked to me about Jesus and God? Really I don't remember because I was taught so young but how do I share it with others that have never believed or known?
I love this RESEt journey because eventhough I think I know , I am really discovering that there is a lot I don't. Am I really able to have the capacity to show God's grace? Do I know who is worthy of God's grace? Jesus is really expecting something from me? All I can say is that I cannot change all at once but a little at a time since I am not sure where I am going just where I am going to be at the end. I am hoping my commitment to Jesus is all I need and that is all I have to perfect. Can I have a commitment for Jesus at all times? Ummmm!
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