Just wondering!

Today starts my first official day of vacation, tonight a massage and tomorrow my 19th wedding anniversary, it's a beatiful day outside and I am not excited about any of those at all. Ok maybe excited about the massage. What is going on? I should be jumping for joy and wondering what exciting things are coming next. All I can think of is what I have not done and what needs to get done in the next two weeks I have left before I go back to work. Like a friend of mine says, "Brain, shut up!!"
I had a very busy weekend and now I am trying to rest but I am so tired I cannot even do that. I am hoping to get into the groove at some point today. I think maybe a little quiet time with God might be what is needed. This weekend's message at church of "Peace" has made me really think about what is Peace and do I have it? Do I want it? I think sometimes we create some of the annoyances and distractions arounds us. I think I definitely want Peace and I definitely want to depend 100% in God but is that possible? Can we give it all to Him? I think so but, Am I able to? I feel in some circumstances it is obvious to give everything to GOD and in others we don't even think about God because we are so upset or angry. We don't think about who gives us our peace, calm and happiness. We are just so ticked off or upset at the world or the situation that "God" doesn't even come into our thought. Sad to say since he created us. I guess what I would like to accomplish is that my love for God takes over my head and makes me realize the Peace that God can pour over me if I just trust him, believe him and love him unconditionally.

Right now, I am not upset or angry or sad, I am just wondering what my loving God has in store for me. I can't wait for the calming Peace to just pour all the time where I can just stand around people and the peace just pours to them. Thank God for Peace! Again, just wondering!